Trust

Trust. It defines the relationship between respect and honesty. If trust isn't mutual between two people then they cannot forward their relationship. In my life I have a very poor support system, which is unhelthy for myself and my future occupation. I have thought a lot about how to strengthen my support system and the one word that came to mind was trust. I with out a doubt do not have mutual trust with my god given support system. I would like to change this however the motivation should be mutual.

I've Done You Wrong

I'm weak to temptation, but you are strong
I know i've done you wrong
My past is full of regret
But you have to roll the dice to win the bet
It's a chance I took
And the devils hand I shook
Betrayel was it's peak
I'm sorry I was weak
So much for me, and little for you
I'm selfish while you are true
I apologize for what I put you through
I know I am not worthy of you
I know apologizing is never enough
Forgiving is tuff
But you are strong
I know i've done you wrong

His Blue Eyes

As bright as the ocean
They are filled with devotion
Looking up in desperation
And down with regret of an untold confession
Bright and Blue
A contradiction of the two
A shade full of happiness that isn't cheap
While the colour is sad and deep
A great story of lies as well as truth
Of a man's unforgotten youth .

You

You listen
You laugh
You have great style
You have perfect teeth
You have blue eyes
You are always here for me
You make me smile
You are outgoing
You are intelligent
You are unique

Is this you ?
Or is this him?
Or could it be her?
It is you.
But who is that?
It is not me .

It will never be defined
Until you look into my mind.

Troubled Teen

First there is screaming
The tension rises
hateful words
The pushing and shoving
... the hitting
The slaming of the doors
And the cries
She comes back
Will she ever leave?
If she doesn't i'm sure he will
and if you run away
Know that I will follow you the whole way
because a troubled teen needs a little guidence
And I will help you through
Unless you don't want me to
She's back again
Even the sight of her he can't stand
My heart goes out to you little man <3

Without You

I'm not doing fine without you
I don't want to feel this way but I do
You left me without a word
I have to rely on what I heard
I said I wouldn't cry
But these tears are welling up from inside
All i want to be is your friend
But you want this to be the end
I can't just erase the past 5-6 months of my life
Cut you out with a knife
My feelings for you are done
I just have one question
Is there hate ?
I'm tired of this debate
I want a clear answer
How did this occur ?

Happy Once Again

Alcohol lingers on my breath
I am happy once again
But this isn't the way that it's suppose to be
So I am sober with bad memories
The screaming is piercing
The words are full of hate
There are tears running down each face
But no one seems to care
I go to school with a smile on my face
But inside I want to be alone and be able to cry
I want to cuddle up in a blanket
I want to hide from the outside
I wonder if I will ever be happy again
So I take a toke
A shot to follow
I party hard
And forget about the pain
I am happy once again....